Funny title, I know. But actually true. I know many people like this, women and men in particular. I don't know what it is,...however beyond my understandings. Yesterday I heard a conversation between two of my colleagues with no intention, as they were behind my desk. Trying not to judge people is hard to me. I have no right to do it, but actually I am not judging individuals, I judge actions. My anger at the world today is something hard to explain, it has no explanation. It is what it is- a material world, with almost no spirituality, with lack of values. So back to my female colleagues... I hardly know one of them as she is form Sofia, but I work closely with the other one. She is a riddle to me. Once she is super kind, another time not as kind at all. Once she is extremely good, another time- evil. Once she pretends to have values and spirituality, another time her spirituality ends up at the moment, when she sees a Coach bag hanging on a shop window!:)...They had this stupid conversation about expensive purchases that they don't even need, from what I understood. Comming from a poor family, now when I am in position to allow myself bying an expensive accessory (not exactly a Coach brand), I wouldn't do it. I had to check-up online, I was so curious why were they so impressed, what do they see so special about those bags, so I had to check:) I saw nothing, I saw brownish borring leather bags (most of them were that way and borring colors, no matter of the pictures I chose for that post), which would be perfect for grannies. It is a personal opinion, probably I am wrong, who knows. But I was just wondering if I have a bag for a price range between 200 $ and 1,000 $, how this will make me feel? Will I feel good, satisfied, pretty or what? Will I feel happy? Will I have my women pride increased, my self esteem raised? I don't think so. I will feel exactly the same if I wear a 5 $ bag. Basically I don't care, I never did, I never will. If I have another feeling left in me, if I ever wear such thing/ bag (which will not be my purchase, but I consider the possibility to receive an expensive gift, who knows it might happen...), I will probably feel a little bit of a guilt and a stomach pain, comming from the reality that many people suffer on this planet, having no acces to medical treatment, food and water and I am showing no empathy to that whatsoever. Thank God, for not letting me down on this road, for letting me understand both sides of the coin and letting me use my brain and heart to work in a combinative way...well, sometimes.


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