This post will certainly not be long as some of my previous (I hope:). Well, I just wanted to share a
little bit of my impressions about salsa dance, how do I feel about it, why do I like it so much, ever since I found it.
First of... gotta say, I started attending this salsa class when I felt really down like an year ago. The previous summer has been one of the worst in my life. Depression had taken control over me and I just couldn't get out of this sad condition... I tried anything, but with no actual result or influence, I saw no light in the tunnel whatsoever. Seeking help by going to a shrink didn't help much, meeting friends, going places too... There were many reasons why did I feel this bad and some of them are too private to share them in here. I must say- I cried every singe day, like many times each day for many, many months... I was so desperate, melancholic & not happy. Anyway at first, I wasn't even sure about this salsa class, I just knew I have to do something, in order to escape the reality I lived in, even for a while. There was much confusion in my head, I tried going to yoga too and all kinds of bullshit to experiment my eventual mental recover. Then I read this beautiful book "What are you afraid of?" from Lavinia Plonka, which helped a little to understand my fears and hopes. Books generally helped me understanding myself a little better... I love books, I read somewhere that booklovers never go to bed alone, which is true to some extend. Nothing could actually substitude the real contact though- a real person, real feelings... So, no matter of my insecurities, I just didn't give up on salsa, even though as I said- was not sure about it.
My reasons differ and there is variaty of them in my head. I was and I am still to certain extend so strange, when it comes to be physically touched by unknown people, however salsa is a social dance.... Confrontation was a big pain and pressure to me. Before I started attending this class, everytime I had to use public transportation, I got some panic conditions when stragers touched my hand or arm, if the bus for exaple was packed... Well, it is hard to explain to those who haven't experienced that or just feel differently. My panic is Huge, when it comes to strangers... Also, I had issues and insecurities about the way I move, how would I look like moving my hips, will I look rediculous, I was just ashamed to be doing some lady style moves. Salsa sort of helped with this too, which is great. Same is with socialising in general. I have always considered myself as a harmless sociopath:), who is easily hurt and too damn sensitive (very much so) :(:(, and that's why many times I prefered isolation from others...... As I said salsa is a social dance and by practising it, I was unconsciously practising TRUST in people, socializing with them and leting them close to me.
And at least but not last, I felt very distant from this kind of music. I have always loved alternative rock, american country music and latino style was all new to me, so weird and even funny. With the time passing by, I started discovering more and more beauty in the songs (that now I assume them as incredibly romantic in a mild old fashion way:) and respectively in salsa... I cannot even describe the magic in this dance. You have to really feel it with your heart, no matter if you are just observer or participant in the dance. Either way, to me it is a magic that people share with their hearts, when they dance. It's like you have limitted time to accept somebody that could be a complete stranger and that doesn't matter at all, because within 10 minutes you share something so special in between (well usually). You are close, distance almost doesn't matter, you are open, you have no prejustices, you embrace, you accept, you love, you listen, you follow, you enjoy your partner, yourself, life... You forget and put all the troubles behind. Those special moments are so magical and so beautiful, to be relaxed and at the same time feel very excited and high, entering in a different better world, where people smile at each other, don't judge and have positive attitude towards each other. It is a mutual dance, a partner dance and a mutual magic that people do. I like that. Nothing against the solo artists, but the mutual dance to me is matchless. Exactly because of the fact that two people create a new world for some time, both persons energies bond together into a greater, higher force. Also the influence and passion are much greater... I can say more, but won't matter. And mainly, yes I started to understand and enoy this dance and latin music too, that is all about love- many times in a romantic abit old fashioned way, that I emrace with all of my heart.
As any other thing in this world, probably this one has some negative sides too. Either way, I am not up to sharing them right now and right here. If for whatever reason I feel disapointed with the salsa, I may change my post or point of view. But currently, that's the way it goes...♥
First of... gotta say, I started attending this salsa class when I felt really down like an year ago. The previous summer has been one of the worst in my life. Depression had taken control over me and I just couldn't get out of this sad condition... I tried anything, but with no actual result or influence, I saw no light in the tunnel whatsoever. Seeking help by going to a shrink didn't help much, meeting friends, going places too... There were many reasons why did I feel this bad and some of them are too private to share them in here. I must say- I cried every singe day, like many times each day for many, many months... I was so desperate, melancholic & not happy. Anyway at first, I wasn't even sure about this salsa class, I just knew I have to do something, in order to escape the reality I lived in, even for a while. There was much confusion in my head, I tried going to yoga too and all kinds of bullshit to experiment my eventual mental recover. Then I read this beautiful book "What are you afraid of?" from Lavinia Plonka, which helped a little to understand my fears and hopes. Books generally helped me understanding myself a little better... I love books, I read somewhere that booklovers never go to bed alone, which is true to some extend. Nothing could actually substitude the real contact though- a real person, real feelings... So, no matter of my insecurities, I just didn't give up on salsa, even though as I said- was not sure about it.
My reasons differ and there is variaty of them in my head. I was and I am still to certain extend so strange, when it comes to be physically touched by unknown people, however salsa is a social dance.... Confrontation was a big pain and pressure to me. Before I started attending this class, everytime I had to use public transportation, I got some panic conditions when stragers touched my hand or arm, if the bus for exaple was packed... Well, it is hard to explain to those who haven't experienced that or just feel differently. My panic is Huge, when it comes to strangers... Also, I had issues and insecurities about the way I move, how would I look like moving my hips, will I look rediculous, I was just ashamed to be doing some lady style moves. Salsa sort of helped with this too, which is great. Same is with socialising in general. I have always considered myself as a harmless sociopath:), who is easily hurt and too damn sensitive (very much so) :(:(, and that's why many times I prefered isolation from others...... As I said salsa is a social dance and by practising it, I was unconsciously practising TRUST in people, socializing with them and leting them close to me.
And at least but not last, I felt very distant from this kind of music. I have always loved alternative rock, american country music and latino style was all new to me, so weird and even funny. With the time passing by, I started discovering more and more beauty in the songs (that now I assume them as incredibly romantic in a mild old fashion way:) and respectively in salsa... I cannot even describe the magic in this dance. You have to really feel it with your heart, no matter if you are just observer or participant in the dance. Either way, to me it is a magic that people share with their hearts, when they dance. It's like you have limitted time to accept somebody that could be a complete stranger and that doesn't matter at all, because within 10 minutes you share something so special in between (well usually). You are close, distance almost doesn't matter, you are open, you have no prejustices, you embrace, you accept, you love, you listen, you follow, you enjoy your partner, yourself, life... You forget and put all the troubles behind. Those special moments are so magical and so beautiful, to be relaxed and at the same time feel very excited and high, entering in a different better world, where people smile at each other, don't judge and have positive attitude towards each other. It is a mutual dance, a partner dance and a mutual magic that people do. I like that. Nothing against the solo artists, but the mutual dance to me is matchless. Exactly because of the fact that two people create a new world for some time, both persons energies bond together into a greater, higher force. Also the influence and passion are much greater... I can say more, but won't matter. And mainly, yes I started to understand and enoy this dance and latin music too, that is all about love- many times in a romantic abit old fashioned way, that I emrace with all of my heart.
As any other thing in this world, probably this one has some negative sides too. Either way, I am not up to sharing them right now and right here. If for whatever reason I feel disapointed with the salsa, I may change my post or point of view. But currently, that's the way it goes...♥
