Miss World 2013

I remember I wrote a post for Miss Universe before. Traditionally (not really), I wanna say few words about Miss Universe this year. But before I do this, I wanna clarify I am strongly against any beauty pageants! They ruin people's conception of beauty and just give wrong impression of what is important in life to be a good and successful person. I think they are all bullshit and stupid, lots of money and energy spent for nothing, no actual meaning of anything. Probably still, better than spending money for war or something even more senseless...

But since there always will be a rush between beauty and mind and since we live in a world full of contradictions and lack of common sense in the society..., well I try to accept it or just adapt the situation. Otherwise it's too difficult to stay on the sideline forever, which I do anyway. But sometimes I land hypothetically to the Earth for a little while to pretend I pay attention and give a damn to all the bullshit for like 5 minutes or whatever. Here they are my minutes to give a f*ck... 

I love the fact a girl from the Philippines won the contest, I am not a racist . I know there are alot of political reasons about it. But since I know how much poverty there is in that country, I am just glad it's not a woman from USA or elsewhere. Also I do find Megan Young charming and somehow glowing in her own way, in my oppinion she was the actual winner. I hate the fake smile, but she seems to distinguish. Not sure if it is a faux innocence, she demonstrate, but well covered, it's nice she won. Not mentioning anything more, unless one thing!

I hate the Stereotypes. For anything. Stereotypes are something really harmful and disgusting, in my oppinion, anti- human, anti- everything, underestimating to true value and unique qualities everyone brings to their personality. And I will finish my post with an interview with Dustin Hoffman, because it is related to the topic and brain washing to seek for superficial beauty, which has nothing to do with the real one.

 http://www.nbcnews.com/entertainment/dustin-hoffmans-tearful-tootsie-interview-about-women-goes-viral-6C10578440

Letter

I don't know why, but I got sad, after I saw this in the morning. Well, maybe because I am sensitive in general. It quite easy for me to be touched emotionally, so... I decided to share something, which I haven't done in a long time. Back in time, I used to love writing and I still do. Not like having enormous anxiety to become a writer, not this type of love. It was just my way to get rid of all the, junk, all thoughts, desires, whatever I kept in my head, for private satisfaction or sometimes torturing myself with load I couldn't even carry on anymore (but having difficulty to share with an actual person) So, here I go. I will post some stuff in like few new pages...

Original link, I found over here: http://9gag.com/gag/aRQ3pxq?ref=fb.s

SALSA

This post will certainly not be long as some of my previous (I hope:). Well, I just wanted to share a little bit of my impressions about salsa dance, how do I feel about it, why do I like it so much, ever since I found it.

First of... gotta say, I started attending this salsa class when I felt really down like an year ago. The previous summer has been one of the worst in my life. Depression had taken control over me and I just couldn't get out of this sad condition... I tried anything, but with no actual result or influence, I saw no light in the tunnel whatsoever. Seeking help by going to a shrink didn't help much, meeting friends, going places too... There were many reasons why did I feel this bad and some of them are too private to share them in here. I must say- I cried every singe day, like many times each day for many, many months... I was so desperate, melancholic & not happy. Anyway at first, I wasn't even sure about this salsa class, I just knew I have to do something, in order to escape the reality I lived in, even for a while. There was much confusion in my head, I tried going to yoga too and all kinds of bullshit to experiment my eventual mental recover. Then I read this beautiful book "What are you afraid of?" from Lavinia Plonka, which helped a little to understand my fears and hopes. Books generally helped me understanding myself a little better... I love books, I read somewhere that booklovers never go to bed alone, which is true to some extend. Nothing could actually substitude the real contact though- a real person, real feelings... So, no matter of my insecurities, I just didn't give up on salsa, even though as I said- was not sure about it.

My reasons differ and there is variaty of them in my head. I was and I am still to certain extend so strange, when it comes to be physically touched by unknown people, however salsa is a social dance.... Confrontation was a big pain and pressure to me. Before I started attending this class, everytime I had to use public transportation, I got some panic conditions when stragers touched my hand or arm, if the bus for exaple was packed... Well, it is hard to explain to those who haven't experienced that or just feel differently. My panic is Huge, when it comes to strangers... Also, I had issues and insecurities about the way I move, how would I look like moving my hips, will I look rediculous, I was just ashamed to be doing some lady style moves. Salsa sort of helped with this too, which is great.  Same is with socialising in general. I have always considered myself as a harmless sociopath:), who is easily hurt and too damn sensitive (very much so) :(:(, and that's why many times I prefered isolation from others...... As I said salsa is a social dance and by practising it, I was unconsciously practising TRUST in people, socializing with them and leting them close to me.

And at least but not last, I felt very distant from this kind of music. I have always loved alternative rock, american country music and latino style was all new to me, so weird and even funny. With the time passing by, I started discovering more and more beauty in the songs (that now I assume them as incredibly romantic in a mild old fashion way:) and respectively in salsa... I cannot even describe the magic in this dance. You have to really feel it with your heart, no matter if you are just observer or participant in the dance. Either way, to me it is a magic that people share with their hearts, when they dance. It's like you have limitted time to accept somebody that could be a complete stranger and that doesn't matter at all, because within 10 minutes you share something so special in between (well usually). You are close, distance almost doesn't matter, you are open, you have no prejustices, you embrace, you  accept, you love, you listen, you follow, you enjoy your partner, yourself, life... You forget and put all the troubles behind. Those special moments are so magical and so beautiful, to be relaxed and at the same time feel very excited and high, entering in a different better world, where people smile at each other, don't judge and have positive attitude towards each other. It is a mutual dance, a partner dance and a mutual magic that people do. I like that. Nothing against the solo artists, but the mutual dance to me is matchless. Exactly because of the fact that two people create a new world for some time, both persons energies bond together into a greater, higher force. Also the influence and passion are much greater... I can say more, but won't matter. And mainly, yes I started to understand and enoy this dance and latin music too, that is all about love- many times in a romantic abit old fashioned way, that I emrace with all of my heart.

As any other thing in this world, probably this one has some negative sides too. Either way, I am not up to sharing them right now and right here. If for whatever reason I feel disapointed with the salsa, I may change my post or point of view. But currently, that's the way it goes...♥

How to become a successful financial director

Unlike what you think and what the title says, I would not share specific "tips and tricks" for becomming a succesful financial leader or a director. Also my intention is not sharing a list of requirements and special skills, educational trainings you need to attend or achieve, rather than telling you a funny and quite sad story about how things work out to be successful in my country- Bulgaria. There is a large and "serious" organization, which is a leader at the financial services and it is a famous investment advisor. Also the company offers Proffesional gateway for traders; cosulting of the capital markets; asset management; attracting of money assets; loans; property investment consultation; ivestment brokerage services and much more. So far so good, however you need to meet Ms. financial director:) (and the boss'lover of course)- Twenty something years old, stupid, uneducated, mean, valey girl who is not simply a gold digger but pretends to be more and demonstrate superior pride. She is anorexic, but to most average bulgarian men, that is the stereotype for beauty over here, they find her attractive. Of course to get to that level and job position she had to become a slave to the big boss, not only a lover, but the proper word is slave. With no intention, I know many stories from a friend of hers and I also had to negotiate with her that my job required:( It wasn't pleasant at all. I feel so sorry for this woman and for Mr.V. and for our society...I am so sorry to be this critic, I rarely attack people and rarely have such a drastic oppinion... I cannot hide my indignation, that's why I post it in here. You would probably say: Why do you even bother, why does this matter to you? It is just indignation that I cannot hide and I need to share. Also, I do care about the thins I will post below:

I know all around the world there are such things and people, but I assume in my country it is just everywhere. Young people are so unmotivated to study and work in order to acheive their dreams, to be more, because in most cases you cannot do this in Bulgaria and that hold us back..., with no progress. Things work the other way around. Whatever you studied, no matter how hard you try, there is always something like that story to drop your intentions down. The reality is bitter, amoral and there is too much Godlessness in my country. People do not generally believe in God and in good things, most people are really desperate and poor. Walking down the street you see many sad faces, it makes you suddenly sad either. The economic situation in Bulgaria is not good at all. and never has been. For sure, I am nobody to judge, I just dream of a better world with happy people, thatt's it .Overall, if you haven't been over here and if you haven't tried to live overhere you probably won't be able to understand what I'm trying to say.

DEAR SANTA,

Dear Santa,… or God or whatever higher force :),

Here are my secret wishes to you. For the coming year and even longer :), I would like to share my wishes, hope it’s not too childish, taking into consideration my age. And are they secret if I post them online anyway?... So, here I go. Most of all I wish to myself and my close people: love ♥. I want them to feel loved to have somebody in their lifes to love, to be in love always and forever. I want love to be my path and everyone’s path, not fear, not anger, no regret... I hope that me and everybody in my life will find a great lover/ partner to share everything with and be verry, very happy. I want to live and cherish the present, stop thinking about the future or past so much…and fear them. I want to enjoy my life, I want to spend my time being and feeling happy with a great partner and wonderful friends. Also I hope to stop feeling this emptiness inside my stomach, this inferior, sadness and unfulfilment :( I want to solve my issues and feel mentally and physically good and in peace. I want to stop crying on a daily basis, I want to become a stronger person, I want to be confident, I want to forget and forgive…myself and other people. I want to stop feeling the need to attend a shrink. I want those damn thoughts for finding no particular sense in life to get out of my head.

For the coming year I want to be able to move out, this is my second greatest wish. I want to move legally :) to a better place than my country and settle down else where. I want to have a nice, cute and cozy home- small house and garden upfront. I want to feel my home, to feel at home and be comfortable. I want to have a terrace and magnolia tree upfront. I want to live by the sea or by the ocean.

I wish to be healthy same as my family and close people. Hope my health improves and all those conditions I have go away :(

I wish to have a pet and have even few great pets. I want to have a dog so much. I would love it with all of my heart. I hope I can afford it.

I wish to become a mother to a puppy, but also to a beautiful human baby girl or boy. I hope that I will not fail as a mom. Please give me strength to be the rock whenever my family needs one. I cannot say I had that in return :( As far as my countless issues and sad childhood, I wish to prevent my possible family from that. I feel like I can’t wait to create the family I never had in a way. 

I want to renew my passion and discover I am still a passionate person and woman inside. I want to feel positive shiver in my stomach, excitement and physical relaxation or just feeling on the top, which didn’t happen to me in quite a long time.

I want to have a great and interesting life. I want love to never ever end, and always to be shared and exciting and true :), I want to communicate and feel free to correspond with my closest ones and generally my partner. I so want to be happy and live a joyful life…

 

I want to travel, to be able to see places. I want to expand my collection of rocks from different countries and sides in the world, by travelling and sightseeing personally :)

I want to learn how to dance salsa well and impressive :)

I want to be able to help my family and loved ones anyway I can.

 

I want to be surrounded by friends and nice people with good intentions.

I want to have a job that I am passionate about and work with excitement. I wish that I am appreciated more and see that people value my contribution. I wish I have a better paid job, more respectful and perspective.

I guess I can write so much more, but I will stop in here. Those are my current wishes for the coming year and even a maybe bit longer:)

Kindest regards,

V.

FUTURAMA

Originally I was sceptical about this animated TV show, when a friend of mine suggested it to me, but I must say now I am quite impressed and decided to share that in here. It's a no way something watchable for kids in my oppinion, especially taking into consideration what the robot (one of my favourite characters:) usually say he likes: hook*rs and black jack....?!:) Ok, the show is futuristic, sci-fi humorous, very entertaining and unusual stuff to watch. I started to like it from the moment I saw how in the year 3000 people already have made up all kinds of things to ease their lifes...or just finish them:) In 1st episod you will see how Philip J. Fry meets Bender, waiting on a line for suicide booth... Funny as it is the boy from 20th century, who unwillingly and strangely woke up in 30th century thought that was a phone call booth. Sadly it turned out to be a suicide booth, which at the same time was hilarious. I guess the message was that if you have a bad day in the year 3000, you can always pay 25 cents and just finish the pain whatsoever. I just like the humour in Futurama, it's so cool. Currently my favourite characters are: Bender & Nibbler. I checked online for better describtion of them creatures and here it is what I found in wiki:)

Bender: Bender is a foul-mouthed, heavy-drinking, cigar-smoking, kleptomaniacal, misanthropic, egocentric, ill-tempered robot manufactured by Mom's Friendly Robot Company. He was originally programmed to bend girders for suicide booths, and is later designated as assistant sales manager and cook, despite lacking a sense of taste. He is described by Leela as an "alcoholic, whore-mongering, chain-smoking gambler":):):)
 

 

Nibbler: Nibbler is Leela's pet Nibblonian, whom she rescued from an imploding planet and adopted early in the series. He is a fictional character from the animated television series Futurama. He is voiced by Frank Welker, who provides not only his speaking lines but also the various noises he makes when not speaking English.

During most of the series Nibbler masquerades as an innocent, cute and unintelligent pet. In very rare circumstances he may break his undercover identity and suddenly be discovered to be super-intelligent, equipped with unique technology and strange natural abilities, which he uses as part of his secret mission to preserve the existence of the entire universe. In most instances everyone else's memories of his true nature are erased but, as of Futurama: Bender's Big Score, the entire Planet Express crew is aware of his sapience, and he shifts between identities more frequently and casually. In "That Darn Katz!", he becomes a fellow crew member.

Nibbler is highly intelligent and capable of communication, but uses telepathic manipulation to simulate human speech because his natural speech is incomprehensible jabber. For most of the series he masquerades as a rather unintelligent animal in order to avoid suspicion while he goes about his mission of protecting the Earth in general and Fry in particular from the evil Brainspawn. He reveals his mission to anyone else only when expecting to wipe their memory of it afterwards.

Miss Universe 2011

I personally like the new Miss Universe alot. I heard all kinds of critique about this girl, but I just wanted to say that to me, she deserves the crown. Ok, not only she was one of the most beautiful contestants, but she also seems really nice if it comes to personality (which is considered important in Beauty pageants...and that is a little strange and untrue, according to me- it is a public lie that everyone accepts). I liked 2 others contestants as well, however she was the black pearl that stood out from the crowd.


This is what she answered in the Q & A section of the pageant:

Question: “If you could change one of your physical characteristics, which one would it be and why?”
Lopes answered: “Thank God, I’m very well satisfied with the way God created me and I would not change a thing. I consider myself a woman with inner beauty. I have my principles. I have acquired many wonderful principles from my family and I plan to follow this through the rest of my life.”



It is probably well created and learned answer, but anyway it was right.

I am unsure if the people behind miss universe should implement an "English Only Policy" in the Q.A. part. it's maybe a bit unfair to some as the title is Miss Universe... And for the mass, Miss Universe should know how to speak the international language- the main thing the was criticized for! However, according to me people should not forget afterall it is a beauty pageant! So she won due to obvious reasons:) Get over it.