Thursday, December 29, 2011

DEAR SANTA,


Dear Santa,… or God or whatever higher force :),



Here are my secret wishes to you. For the coming year and even longer :), I would like to share my wishes, hope it’s not too childish, taking into consideration my age. And are they secret if I post them online anyway?... So, here I go. Most of all I wish to myself and my close people: love . I want them to feel loved to have somebody in their lifes to love, to be in love always and forever. I want love to be my path and everyone’s path, not fear, not anger, no regret... I hope that me and everybody in my life will find a great lover/ partner to share everything with and be verry, very happy. I want to live and cherish the present, stop thinking about the future or past so much…and fear them. I want to enjoy my life, I want to spend my time being and feeling happy with a great partner and wonderful friends. Also I hope to stop feeling this emptiness inside my stomach, this inferior, sadness and unfulfilment :( I want to solve my issues and feel mentally and physically good and in peace. I want to stop crying on a daily basis, I want to become a stronger person, I want to be confident, I want to forget and forgive…myself and other people. I want to stop feeling the need to attend a shrink. I want those damn thoughts for finding no particular sense in life to get out of my head.



For the coming year I want to be able to move out, this is my second greatest wish. I want to move legally :) to a better place than my country and settle down else where. I want to have a nice, cute and cozy home- small house and garden upfront. I want to feel my home, to feel at home and be comfortable. I want to have a terrace and magnolia tree upfront. I want to live by the sea or by the ocean.

I wish to be healthy same as my family and close people. Hope my health improves and all those conditions I have go away :(

I wish to have a pet and have even few great pets. I want to have a dog so much. I would love it with all of my heart. I hope I can afford it.

I wish to become a mother to a puppy, but also to a beautiful human baby girl or boy. I hope that I will not fail as a mom. Please give me strength to be the rock whenever my family needs one. I cannot say I had that in return :( As far as my countless issues and sad childhood, I wish to prevent my possible family from that. I feel like I can’t wait to create the family I never had in a way. 

I want to renew my passion and discover I am still a passionate person and woman inside. I want to feel positive shiver in my stomach, excitement and physical relaxation or just feeling on the top, which didn’t happen to me in quite a long time.

I want to have a great and interesting life. I want love to never ever end, and always to be shared and exciting and true :), I want to communicate and feel free to correspond with my closest ones and generally my partner. I so want to be happy and live a joyful life…
 
I want to travel, to be able to see places. I want to expand my collection of rocks from different countries and sides in the world, by travelling and sightseeing personally :)

I want to learn how to dance salsa well and impressive :)

I want to be able to help my family and loved ones anyway I can.

 


I want to be surrounded by friends and nice people with good intentions.

I want to have a job that I am passionate about and work with excitement. I wish that I am appreciated more and see that people value my contribution. I wish I have a better paid job, more respectful and perspective.


I guess I can write so much more, but I will stop in here. Those are my current wishes for the coming year and even a maybe bit longer:)

Kindest regards,
V.